Punishment

There is this
constant reminder
of being in trouble
without being in trouble

it was crazy

in order for my sisters and i
to do anything i had to let him
do what he needed to do

this one particular week
we couldn't go to the rec
center unless i allowed him
to use me
as what i called myself
at this time
his 'slave'
i adore my little sisters
so much
and they have no idea of the things
i have gone thru
just to see them smile

any who

he told my little sisters
to go outside
and play in front of the house
i asked if i could go
and of course
the answer was no
but why
what did i do so wrong
that i couldn't go outside?

i was told to go in my room and
wait
and usually when a black child hears that
their about to get their ass
busted wide open with a belt

but instead

he just wanted a nut
he
closed the door to my room
laid me on the floor
and
begin
to
kiss
me
softly
and
the only thing i could think of
is how badly my little sister wanted
to go swing
and get a free lunch at the rec
she was so adorable
so i laid there
and he removed my shirt
kissing my breast
he was so rough
and he liked to bite
but i just laid there

the longer i laid there
the more he took off
he removed my shorts
and then my panties
and massaged around on my clit
and to be so young
it felt strange
but eventually i got used to it
before i knew it
there was a substance
coming from me
and now that I'm older
i know i was just getting wet
but then
i thought it was just pee
lol
and he eased
himself
slowly
inside
and the pain was so unbearable
but she was so pretty when she
smiled
i could feel my walls being ripped apart
and this is the only thing he did slow
often asking me if it hurt
i always said no
to get it over with
and then i was to taught to
to sexy to him
tell
him
how
much
i liked
daddy's
dick
but
he wasn't my daddy
he wasn't my daddy
nor did i enjoy his dick
but he enjoyed my sweet little pus
mmm
and he came
then he left
and i laid
waiting on clearance to get up

and then i bathed
and then i played
pushed my sister so high
in the swing that day
she giggled so hard
and told me she loved me
some words i longed to hear

Peace