13 February 2010

Molesting my Molester : Regaining Power

We were at this familiar house, had to have about three rooms, the master on one side of the kitchen the other two rooms on the other end and then of course the the living room, dining room, there was a "game-room" like den and it was well furnished.
Everyone had left and my mother stated that she would be back which left the house to just the two of us.

Me and him.

He and I




I was in the corner of the hallway quietly watching him work his way around the kitchen, cleaning and putting things in their appropriate places and right when he turned the light off to leave the kitchen i walked up behind him and wrapped a rope like [maybe it was a belt?] object around his neck until he became weak and fell to his knees. This made me feel a sudden rush that i had never felt before. It felt like all the blood in me immediately rushed to my clit, it became hard and i could feel myself getting wet, so wet that it began to run down my thigh.
Once he was unconscious i yanked and tugged at him until i could get him to the bedroom where i tied him to the bed.


And woke him by pouring cold water on him. He jumped up out of shock and began questioning why i had him tied up, why was i treating him this way..

I slapped him, hard enough for his lip to bleed and told him that i would ask all of the questions and he was to speak only at that point.

The look in his eye was of straight terror.
Like he had inverted back to a little boy and i was the boogie man.
That look turned me on even more.

I grabbed him by the throat and began to slowly kiss him, pulling his penis thru the hole in his boxers and slowly stroking him until he became hard, as soon as i could feel the hardness of him peaking thru i blind folded him and taped his mouth because i only wanted to enjoy the fact that i was in charge.

Right before i put the blind fold on i could see tears streaming from his eyes and sadly enough i did not give a damn at this point i was ready to cum.

I dug my nails into the side of his stomach, deep enough to carve my name and then i began to suck him


allowing him to
grow inside of my mouth

large enough for it to
hit the back of my throat

and release a small amount of nut

I suppose that was my cue to
climb on top of him

i ripped the tape off of his mouth
and as he yelped i stuck my nails
in his throat as i tilted his head back whispering in his ear
"tell me you want it"
he shook his head no so
i slapped him
and repeated the demand
"TELL me you want it"
he nodded slowly
i asked
"what the fuck does that mean?"
he whimpered
"i want it"
i told him to repeat it
he yelled out slightly louder
"i want it"
i then proceeded by
telling him to

fuck me

like he meant it,

like he wanted it

like he craved it

like he loved it

he thru his pelvis
digging himself deeper into my

i yelled fuck me harder

my every wish was his command

and i could feel him
becoming apart of me
like i was transforming into him
i began to love myself
and despise myself at the same time
and right at this point is when i came

then i woke up out of my sleep
i had actually came in my sleep
first time ever...

now in this dream was i regaining power or losing my mind?

I was taking back what he took from me.

I was not angry.. just yearned for power.

The power rapist/molester usually is someone the victim knows: a friend, a date, an acquaintance, a relative.

Or maybe i was a bit angry since i used violence... The power rapist rarely threatens the victim with physical violence beyond the sexual assault itself, and does not usually injure the victim.

But i wanted to inflict pain, and i wanted to cum in the process. I wanted to him to feel the humiliation he put me thru and altho it was never any pain brought to me [outside of fucking me] what i wanted for him was the total opposite.

Two different profiles i read:

The Power Rapist is very different. He does not want to hurt the victim. Rather, he is seeking a conquest. He wants to have a woman and to control her. He always wants her to like him. He wants to "score" and is willing to use whatever means are necessary to force compliance. Thus, he is capable of hurting his victims. Power rapists often have fantasies about taking a woman by force as a way of fulfilling his fantasy. He often keeps the victim with him for hours, making normal social conversation and may even ask her for a date in the future. Power rapists are usually men who have been unsuccessful in interpersonal relationships in their lives in general. They rape to compensate for feelings of inadequacy.

The Sadistic Rapist uses brutal, violent force and usually the force is lethal. Aggression is eroticized in his mind and anger and sexuality are fused into one. The attack is premeditated. Sadistic rapists commit the most grotesque crimes. Therefore, they often get the most publicity, creating the false impression that sadistic rapes are more prevalent than other types of rape.

Maybe it was just a dream pr maybe it was me wanting to feel Powerful again...
Either way this dream scared the hell out of me, what do you think?